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Exasperated.

Friday, July 31, 2009,5:56 PM

What the fuck.
I'm using bro's comp once again.
Guess what?
The computer, the newly reformatted computer, is damaged.
Friggin' damaged!
Okay, maybe it's not damaged. It's not fixed properly.
It hanged, and when i finally got to on it, the screen went black, and on again, and black, and this routine repeated for god-knows-how-many times.
And then i get so irritated i gave up and use bro's instead.
And well, that means i'm not gona do tags nor update.

Okay. One important thing i need to say:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QING aka COTTON!
I love you so so much, xoxo. :]
Sorry for the uninteresting dedication, and sorry for cursing on the beginning of the post, where i should have first wished you happy birthday, and also sorry for no pics of cakes because, well, bro's comp.

P.S Maybe, maybe no hip hop today. Spring Summer Winter absent. =(
P.P.S If i go to mama's house today, my cousin who is suppose to fix the comp is gona die. Yes, he is.
He's gona pay for the not-perfectly-fixed computer.
P.P.P.S Just kidding about the dying part. =]

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You guys just don't get it, do you?
You just judge people from your own point of view.
What about my point of view?
That's more than selfish.

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Disdain.

Thursday, July 30, 2009,5:46 PM

In case you hadn't realize, the computer is officially back!
[ In fact, it's back at night the day before yesterday. If you have been following me on Twitter, you would have known. =D ]
I hate this newly reformatted computer actually.
Doesn't seem like my old friend back then. =)
Ahem. Enough with sentimental things. It's only a computer, FGS.
But now it's like brand new, i have to download msn, photoshop, fonts, chinese writting etc.
And it friggin' hanged just now.
Yes. The newly reformatted, should-have-been-perfect computer just hanged.
What the hell. I will plan an interrogation with my cousin soon. =D

School was so far okay.
I think i flunk the whole bm presentation thing, but who cares? =]
Bc tuition today will start at 7pm, teacher will come late. Darn.

Oh. There's a few things i'll update about, maybe tomorrow.
Yes yes yes. I promise that i'll do Qing's tag and update about Yin's pressie.
Stay tuned. (:

P.S Sorry for the short post, but there's loads of stuffs need to be done with the computer and i don't have much time left till tuition.

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Feelings too intense; reality too cruel.

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Annoyance.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009,6:18 PM

Thankfully, computer is back.
Still using bro's though, as i'm downloading msn and stuffs to the newly re-format computer.
Btw. I'm now doubting whether i want Dell Inspiron 14' laptop.
And i probably wouldn't blog tomorrow. Tuition. =(

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Frustration.
Which is the truth?
Who should i believe?
My conscience, or your testimonial?

I have no idea what the hell is happening right now.

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Complains.

Monday, July 27, 2009,5:36 PM

No, fyi, the computer is not back yet.
I'm using my bro's comp.
[ Even though i swear i wouldn't use it in the previous post. ]
The fact is, i miss msn, blogging, twitter etc so much i wana cry.
It's like when a smoker is trying to give up smoking.
Anyway, bro's fix his comp or something, so it's not lag anymore. =)
I have no idea when my beloved computer will come back. D=

Anyway, school was normal as usual.
All ECA was canceled, as it is PMR trial week.
I'm not particularly happy nor sad about this.
Good luck to PMR candidates. =D

I'm not gona blog much seeing my comp is not here.
Will post once in a while to let you know that i'm not dead, yet.

P.S To Zephy: Get well soon! xoxo.

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I was trembling, shivering and shaking all over.
No once noticed.

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Notice.

Friday, July 24, 2009,6:27 PM

Emergency!
The computer has been taken by cousin for the annihilating of viruses.
I mean, re-formatting.
The problem is, i don't know when the computer will come back.
So, wana say that i'm not gona blog these days.
*Bows apologetically*

P.S Happy Birthday Ghia!
P.P.S Thanks Yinnie for the present. Love it! =)
P.P.P.S I'm using bro's comp now. Too damn lag. I'm never using it again.
P.P.P.P.S I'll update everything once the computer gets back.

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I was thunderstruck. Dumbfounded.
I cannot believe my luck. Oh My God.

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Dream.

Thursday, July 23, 2009,5:42 PM

Today was not bad actually.
Geography teacher was absent, double periods free.
English teacher went to see that public speaking competition, one period free. =)
I heard that our school won the competition. Congratulations! =D

Loads of homework. [ Specifically, maths. ]
And once again, gotta tuition later.
And once again, i dread it!
[ How many times should this routine of complains continue? ]
Ah. Fuck this. =(

Today, hopefully, cousin will come to fix the computer.
Thank God.

Speaking about God, me and choco drew our own imagination of Heaven.
It's suppose to be an organization, the founder being God.
It's kinda hilarious, but wonderful somehow.
Maybe one day we can write a book about it.
The whole talk was inspired by a plate of mushroom cheese spagethi cooked by mum. =D

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It seemed like a dream, so surreal.
I'm doubting my eyes, ears, memory.
Did it really happened?

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Confused.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009,5:32 PM

School was, okay.
Kh teacher went to some camp, but we still didn't have the periods free, darn.
Igcse was free, listened to students practicing public speaking for tomorrow's competition.
Dance club was at foyer B, felt so, exposed. Roflmao.
Btw, the asshole came to talk craps to me.
I really felt like standing up and slapping him right in the face and shout:
'I've got rights to choose what i want to do and what i don't, so shut up and fuck off please.'

Gotta have bc tuition later, and well, i'm dreading it like usual.
Good news is, my cousin is gona visit tomorrow to help us re-format the computer.
Thank goodness.
Another news, my aunt and uncle and cousin living in London will be visiting this Friday.
There are gona stay for 10 days, i suppose. No comments. =]

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Yesterday, i'm convinced that i saw a fraction of brightness, illuminating the path.
Hope blaze like a fire, caressing my soul, melting my heart.
But today. Darkness returned, and it conquered my sight.
I am blinded, once again.

What, is the truth?
To whom, should i give my trust?
I didn't want to believe.
No. I didn't dare to believe.
Because i am scared, yes, scared shit that the devil is hiding behind hope, readying to pounce on my at any second.

A mixture of great sadness, uncontrollable anger, deep humiliation, and immense disappointment settled in my heart.
I am drowning in this deep sea of confusion, and no matter how hard i tried, i cannot reach the surface.
At that very moment, i thought i was going to cry there and then.

And then, you came.

But did you rescue me, or push me deeper down into the sea?
I don't know anything anymore.

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Oh God.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009,5:55 PM

Finally, finally i'm able to blog!

I think our computer has virus. Fuck.
Yesterday, i on the computer for more than 10 times, yet it doesn't even budge.
And when i finally on it, using it halfway, it shut down suddenly.
And the worst thing is, i cannot go to google, nor blogger.
I was like, what the fuck. =(
Gona send the computer for re-formatting soon.

Okay anyway, i'll update for yesterday.
I went to school, and got some belated presents, and when i went home, my mum said:
Did you just went shopping? rofl.
The prezzies. Thanks everyone! =D

# From Snowy. It's tasteful, i love it! =) Thanks!

# From Yin Ling and Jasper. Damn nice, thank you!

# From Zephy. Kawaii desu ne, arigato gozaimasu! Anata wa daisuki desu. =D

# From Boonie. The most practical present, i think i can bring it to Sports Day next time. Cute, too! Love it!

# From mk. Thanks.

Stupid computer. Stupid virus. Go away! =(

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What are you thinking?
I don't understand you, at all.

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Birthday.

Sunday, July 19, 2009,1:23 PM

*Warning: Long post ahead.*

Happy Birthday to Demon aka Yen aka myself.

I'm officially 14 now. =)
[ I don't feel any special, though. ]

Anyway, gona update for yesterday's party.
Venue: Forest Green Condo, Sg Long. [ Kah Poh's House. ]
Time: 12pm to 12am. [ Not exactly. ]
Theme: Dx belated birthday party. And my advanced birthday party. And gathering. Whatever. =D
Attendants: Me, Sian Fei, Joanne, Quee Nie, Yi Xuan, Qing Yi, Yin Ling, Valerie, Keh Lyn, Alwin, Win Shen, Loong, Jasper, Kah Chun, Kah Ming, Lucas, Li Wei, Shaun, Keng Seng, Ding Xiang, Jun Kai, Russell, Darren, Kelvin.
[ Of course Kah Poh is there. But it's his house, so i don't think he's counted as attendants. ]
--I'm really sorry if i forgot to put any of your names. If i really did forgot, please tell me in my chat box, i'll add immediately!--

Let's start from the beginning.
Dance class was, miraculously, canceled at the last minute as teacher was not free.
I was practically shouting in joy.
After lunch, i set off to Kah Poh's House! =)

# My outfit of the Day.

When i reach there, everyone was coming out from the pool.
The guard asked them to, as they didn't wear proper swimming attire.
Fuck the guards. Darn.

# That's the bastard. The left one. After that incident, he sat beside the pool for the whole fucking day. That prevented everyone from jumping inside the pool. Damn.

Then we went to the playground!

# If you look clearly, you will find that Shaun and Kelvin are BOTH sitting on the left swing. Please don't try this at home, it's dangerous. =X

# Random shot.

# Alwin and Joanne on the see-saw. =)

# Qing's shirt, I love Fridays.

# Happy Bday Chace. [ It's probably not visible, but whatever. ]

# Wonderful. I detected another mistake on the Rules board.
[ If you read my previous post you'll understand why i used the term 'another'. ]
Read carefully: To Any PersonS.
I wonder, what is the 'S' doing there?

# Actually, this was the first picture i take when i reach. The perspective was perfect, i can't help myself. =]

Then we went up to Kah Poh's House.

# A mess of bags. =D

# Everyone doing random things. Xuan maple, Win Shen Rubik cube, Kah Chun and Lucas fussing over their hair with wax, sprays etc. Kelvin, Qing, Russell looking. =]

After that we set off to the main point, barbecue!

# We were doing that up on the balcony at first. Okay, not we, i'm not included as i was wearing lens. They. =]

# Trying to light up the fire.

# Then after some arguments, they shifted to the ground on the grass.

# And once more shifted to the concrete floor.

# Everyone busy doing their stuffs. This photo was taken with the camera on the ground. =)

# The first thing they cook, sausages! With honey, of course.

# Chicken wings, sausages, pork etc.

# A shot of Yin Ling. Took by me! I love the perspective, the feel it gave out. =D
[ Now, i'm praising myself. ]

# Shot of Zephy and Cottie. Love it too! Felt it. [ Camera on the ground. ]

# These two kawaii girls which were playing at the playground. We talked and played with them, darn cute. The sister is 8 years old, younger 3. The 8 year old fell in love with Alwin. When we ask her: 'Do you like this gorgor? --pointing to Alwin--' She nodded and blush! ;D

# A shot of Fei and Joanne. =) [ From Below. ]

Then after eating and chatting, we decided to play Ice and Water.
It's already like a tradition whenever we went to Kah Poh's house.
The guys said they wana change, so we went up to the condo again, and waited for them to fuss over their hair.
Seriously, they took so damn long to do all those stuffs. =X
Finally, they're done, and we went playing Ice and Water by the pool.
Me, Lucas, Li Wei, Dx, Kc and Ks, were walking to the pool, and they acted as my bodyguards. -_-
Fucking hilarious, whose idea was that? =]
Ice and Water was tiring, but fun all the same. =D
Girls + Loong + Kah Ming: Ice.
Guys: Water.

Because of sweating so much, the guys jumped inside the pool.
Then we decided to eat the cake --mine and dx's-- bought by Win Shen. [ Thanks! ]
We took the cake up to the condo.
I was drinking water like crazy --not really-- the time i reach the condo. Darn thirsty.

# Guys playing cards.

And we went through all the motions of singing birthday songs, making wishes, blowing candles.

# Ding Xiang's cake.

# My cake! =D

The only thing out of tradition is that we did not eat the cake.
We played with it. Cream War!
I don't know who started it, but it ended up in a mess.
A fun, hilarious and exciting mess. =]
My face look like shit. My hair too! Everywhere there's cream!
--Not only me. Everyone else. That's the hilarious part.--
I didn't post the cream-faced pics, because my hands were too oily that the pics became a blur. =)

Later, wash wash wash scrub scrub scrub.
Of course there's still cream adhering to my hair. It just doesn't come off.
Sticky and oily all over.
Fun, nevertheless. ;D

Mum and dad reached, so i went home. That time was around 11pm.
Both of them stared wide-eyed at my cream-faced state. =X
Reach home and bath. Then waited.

# Ta-da, it's my birthday! =D

The presents:

# From Keng Seng. That's my face on the cup! Darn nice, thanks. :]

# From Lucas and Kah Chun. Kawaii, thanks! =)

That's precisely how the whole day ended.
One hell of a party. Thank you everyone!

P.S Someone owe me something but someone overdid it. *laughs*

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I will crush hope before it can crush me.
That's what i always said to myself.
That's what i always failed to achieve.

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Smiles.

Saturday, July 18, 2009,11:30 AM

First and foremost,

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY TO CHACE CRAWFORD!

You're so damn hot that i melted. =)
I haven't watch Gossip Girl yet, actually.
I can't wait to watch it soon.

Btw, i just came home from school, Parent's Day.
Turned out okay, no complains there.
Then, mum brought me to the Kodak shop to take my pic for PMR.
I didn't bring a comb, and my hair doesn't stay in the correct place today, it's a mess.
Anyway, i look at the first pic that guy took, and i rejected it.
Then after the second try, i rejected it too.
The point is, i look too damn ugly.
My hair sucks, my face too fat, my eyes too small, my smile too fake etc.
I insisted that i'll come and re-take the photo tomorrow.
After pleading and begging, mum relented. =)
[ I doubt i'll look any better tomorrow, though. ]

Gona go kah poh's house for the gathering after jazz.
Can't wait. =D

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Doubts.

Friday, July 17, 2009,5:39 PM

Tomorrow will be quite eventful, and i can't wait for it.

#1 It's Chace Crawford's 24th birthday!
Omg. Now only i realize his birthday is a day before mine. =D

#2 It's Parent's Day.
I'm not really anticipated about this, but still, it's an event.

#3 Kah Poh's house, gathering.
It will be the second time i go to tiramitsu's house. =)
[ Will update on Sunday. ]

And, the best thing is that maths tuition is canceled.
Yes, friggin' canceled. Teacher's busy. *leaps in joy*

I'm probably not going to hip hop today.
There's only me and choco, plus we're having stomach aches.
PMS, you know. =(

P.S The internet is so fucking slow.
P.P.S Maybe, i won't blog tomorrow. =]

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I doubting.
Am i really doing what i want to do?
I pray it turn out alright in the end.

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Doleful.

Thursday, July 16, 2009,5:46 PM

School was okay.
ICT teacher absent, two periods free. =)
One teacher exploded, 'cause they played a trick.
One teacher imploded, scolded the offender unreasonably.
Like i said yesterday, i have tuition today, dread it.
You don't know how torturing it is to face the same teacher two days in a row, 2 hour for each.
Goddamn.

I feel kinda down today.
Lotsa stuff, plus PMS.
[ Guys, you should really thank God that you're born a guy. ]
And i'm really pissed off now. Darn. =/

And these quotes, are for you, dear friend. I hope you see them, and understand.

Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. --Alfred Lord Tennyson.

If you really love something set it free. If it comes back it's yours, if not it wasn't meant to be. --anonymous.

You have to forgive and forget, and forget, to feel again. --anonymous.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself by putting it back together. --anonymous.

Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go. --anonymous.

Please remember that we'll always be there for you, no matter what.
Cheer up, mate =)
不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。
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I hate her, i hate her so much.
I hate to think that it's her, not me.

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