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The last day of 2009.

Thursday, December 31, 2009,7:20 PM

I am suddenly speechless. I've got no idea how to start this post, and what to write. Because today is the last day of the year, this post feels somehow... special. Just like everything else. Everything felt special today. Like, you find yourself thinking 'this is the last time i wake up to the morning of year 2009' , 'the last breakfast for 2009' etc. etc. You find yourself appreciating more of every second, savoring each and every moment, because it's the last of this year. ( Saying 'last time doing blablabla feels terrible. I should stop being pessimistic. But what i mean is 'last time of this year' not the 'last last time' okay? Despite it sounding horrible, i repeated it so damn many times already. )

I think i shall start with stating down some significant changes that had occurred to me this year. ( I really want to write this down, for the sake of my perusal next time. That's what blogging is to me, most of the time. )

Year 2009, i found my beloved, him. It was surprising, to find someone i love. ( As in romantically in love okay, not those family slash friend love. ) Because according to Choco, i was a 'cold-hearted bitch'. She didn't say the bitch, although in her heart she's screaming it. So it was a shock, literally, to her when she got the news. It was equally surprising to me too, but it was a good surprise, nevertheless. Of course, you can never have a perfect relationship, there are ups and downs for sure. But everything is worth it. There's this beautiful quote which i read from a book, it says 爱不会让人受伤，会让人受伤的不是爱. The best translation i came up with: Love doesn't hurt, what hurts isn't love that cause it. I totally agree with it. And to you: I love you my baby. --Quoting Gossip Girl-- Always have, always will. Hearts.

Year 2009, i found my Senior 2 Charity, which may not be perfect, but near enough. I've found friends, true friends that genuinely like me, and i love them back. I don't ask for their love, i don't ask for their willingness to share every secret with me. I just hope they genuinely like me, that's all. And being self-conscious, i know i've got shitloads of 'enemies' who dislike/hate/despise/loathe me. But having that few true friends is enough, more than enough. Senior 2 Charity, they may not all like me, and some of them are not even close to me, but it's okay, 'cause they're great classmates. (:

Year 2009, i've got satisfactory material possession. Firstly, i'd bought my baby laptop, which i'm using right now. Okay, i hate it for not having backlit keyboard, but it functions well enough, so i'm not complaining. And then i've got pretty heels, flats, slippers, clothes, dresses, bags etc. But of course, these will never be enough. Every girl will agree. *laughs* I'm still looking for my dream heels so... ahem. Scratch that. I'm satisfied! ;D

Year 2009, i become a Jodi Picoult fan. Like, oh my god i love her book so damn much. I currently owned 8 of her books now, and i'm planning to buy all of them. Likewise, i became a 九把刀 ( Giddens ) fan too. His ideas may be bizarre, and outrageous, and ludicrous and whatever word else you can come out with, but it's amusing, and hilarious somehow. Love his dry humour. Plus, my collection of books ( plus Choco's, since we shared anyway ) is growing larger and larger. Reading is definitely something i love doing, not out of habit/duty but out of avocation. (:

Year 2009, ( and all the years before ) i find that, i really really love my family. I'm a typical Cancer. I didn't come to love my family because i'm a Cancer, i was born loving them. My dad, he seems fierce, and unreasonable at times, but he's actually cute and he really cares about us. Mum, she's downright funny and adorable. Yes, like other mums, she may nag all the time, but she loves us very much, and she really did everything for our own good. Choco, hell, she's the best sister ever. ( To Choco: Don't be touched or anything, i'm exaggerating! =P ) We have this really miraculous bond between us, mentally. We always end up saying the same thing at the same time, or thinking about the same song, and we can even finish off each others' sentences. =)

To summarize it, year 2009 had been ( still being ) a fantastic one. All the memories, either good or bad, will be stored in my heart. At times, i might play them across my mind again, and drown myself in the reverie of this wonderful year. Thank you for playing a part in the memories, all of you. (:

I'm sorry for this word heavy post, and some of you who only love pictures had probably skipped this. But who cares? Like i said, sadly, the main point of blogging these craps is for my sole benefit. Apologies! And if you've read til so far, --or maybe, just scrolled down straight away which is predictable for some-- i'm saying: May God bless you. Okay that's so not me, ignore that. Wish you don't forget this goddamn 2009, and make sure you have a better year next year, or you'll be damned. *laughs* Happy new year!

2010, here i come.

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