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The Results.

Thursday, December 23, 2010,5:23 PM

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Being a superman is easy as ABC.

Today is the day all of us get our PMR results. Well i know PMR is practically useless but i can't help feeling nervous about it since it's like, a conclusion and acknowledgment for what i had studied for three years. I was aiming for straight A's definitely. But then i told myself it wouldn't matter much if i didn't achieve what i want, i will get over it soon. The thing i'm afraid of is the disappointment of all the teachers that put high hopes and confidence in me. I wouldn't know how to face them if i get shit results.

So i woke up today with butterflies in my stomach. On the way to school, herds of elephants were stomping around inside me. When i was walking to block C, the whole zoo was practically thrashing and howling in my heart wtf. Walked pass Russell and he said 'You surprised us.' My heart skipped a beat. What? Surprised them? Meaning i didn't get the results as expected from everyone? I walked to Pn Ramlah, and she told me 'Kamu ada satu B.'

I was totally stunned, my worst-case scenario is alive! I forced a smile and muttered 'Huh? Benar ah?' Then she said 'Ya, subjek yang kamu tidak ambil.' Ohmygod i was like so relieved and happy. Straight 8A's! Thank God thank God. Most of the people in my class got really good results too. Congratulations (:

Beloved Pn Ramlah and I, holding my result slip. My face have gotten chubbier, haven't they? ):

Mummy and I, was talking to the phone with daddy telling him my results.

Hime and I, now asking dad to prepare RM8000 for my reward... *smirks*

The people at block C. It's been so long since i stepped into school. ( And no i don't really miss it. )

Later we went to some Kodak shop and i ordered a camera! Nikon S80, it's not really nice on the appearance but i love the functions and i'm desperate for a camera. Plus, Fluffy will be going for vaccination tomorrow, will post up the pics if i can. ( Hime's blue sony camera is not working, since a few hours ago fml )

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Hidden thoughts.

People say these to me all the time: 'Aiya you sure get full A's one lah, sure good results one lah', and teachers told me 'I have high confidence in you, kamu pasti boleh punya' those type of stuffs...I wanna make something clear here. It's totally not like that at all. I may have satisfying results most of the time, but of course i'm still nervous about my results and stuffs. Being a so called 'top student', 'high scorer', 'genius', 'brainiac'...it's very stressful.

I feel like every time i do an exam, i am doing it for the sake of everyone around me, not for myself. Because the truth is i couldn't really care less. I just didn't want to disappoint anybody so i did my best. And the results i get are out of hard work and a lil bit of luck, not because i'm a genius or anything. No offense, i'm not blaming everyone here! Just want you guys to know that,

I am not a top student.
I am not a high scorer.
I am not a genius.
I am not a brainiac.
I am not a prodigy.
I am not a valedictorian.
I am not a smart person.
I am not clever.
I am not a pro.
I am not flawless.

I'm just a girl.

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