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Something decent.

Thursday, March 31, 2011,7:02 PM

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I feel like my blog is kinda full of craps lately, so i'm finally going to do a somewhat decent post. Well as you guys know, it was Ling's birthday on Sunday. And AgnesGoh and I decided to get her something special, and we settled on customized necklace. Ordered it online, thank God it arrived save and sound! (:

Free postage fee, heh. It arrived a day earlier than the anticipated date. ( Still a belated present though, sorry babe! )

Ok it looks kinda unappealing here. But it's not too expensive, it's not even real silver/gold. Just sterling silver, might rust too lol! But well, we were sincere okay.

Ta-da! Ling with a butterfly. Hope she likes it!

And also ordered a necklace for Hime, as her birthday present. She's satisfied with it, thankfully. She chose the designs herself actually.

And there goes my so-called "decent" post. At least i have the initiative to put pictures okay. Forgive me for my lameness, it's just that i've been so exhausted this few days. Blame it on pms, blame it on sports practice, blame it on the thousand things on my mind. I'm fatigue. My mind really needs to stop whirling now or i might just explode wtf. *takes a deep breath*

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Emotional.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011,11:59 PM

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And i believed you.

Ignore this whole post, thank you. I just need a place to vent out my feelings.

I close my eyes, hugged myself. Kept quiet. Forced the tears back but it's pointless. It's hard, keeping the feelings hidden. It's hard, staying silent all the time. But i am not supposed to be angry. I am not supposed to lose control on my emotions. I am not supposed to show. I am not supposed to throw childish tantrums. I am not supposed to let my emotions take over. I am not supposed to. I should not. I am supposed to keep quiet. I am supposed to bear with it. I am supposed to grit my teeth through it and not complain. I am supposed to control the tears. I am supposed to stand strong. I am supposed to be tough. I am supposed to stand firm. I am supposed to stand up even after i'm pushed. I'm supposed to keep quiet even though my heart is breaking into pieces.

There's so many things i know that i am supposed to do, and those that i'm not supposed to do. I know the list by heart. I've been through it countless of times. And i can't see any reason why i can't do it now. I should shut the fuck up, swallow every single bit of sadness, force back all the pathetic tears. I should build a shield, a wall. Protect myself, like i always do. As selfish as it may seem, i'm tired of getting bruised, tired of getting pushed off the edge. The pain is horrible. But i will bear with it. I must. I should. I cannot collapse, i cannot fall. I simply can't. My wall is halfway built now. All i need to do is disorientate myself, pull back from reality, cover myself with this layer of numbness. Coldness in my eyes, so that i won't feel anything. So that nothing can harm me. Nothing.

I am tough, i will stand strong. Watch me.

I need you. I need to rely on you, just like every time something happened. I'm so used to you always being there, and now that you left i can't seem to cope. I feel helpless. You were always my support. You were always there to protect me, to give me security. But fuck, i hate past tense. Now with you gone, who am i to rely on? I can't see anything, not anymore. There's no light in this endless piece of darkness.

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Shopping!

Sunday, March 27, 2011,1:57 PM

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Apparently my wish came true, the trio went to Midvalley this morning ( yes 10am in the morning ) to have our breakfast at Sushi Zanmai. Yes sushi zanmai again, i can never get enough of it. Thank God i finally have something to blog about! (:

Outfit of the day. Nerdy top from Nichii, nice and cheap pants from the market, my fav killer boots from Treats. Oh, and some cheap bag from the market too. ;D

Mum being the ambassador for Sushi Zanmai. ( I wanted to act like tourists heh. )

Yummy, was starving by then.

This no-idea-whats-the-name sushi is a must-have every time i come here! It's always my first dish hehe. I'm so in love with the mayo.

Salmon is love! *salivates*

Spider roll is yummy too.

This is super expensive because of the egg-like things on top of the sushi. Tasted okay.

Walked around later, didn't shop much because we weren't really in the mood for shopping. Went home at about 1pm, and here i am blogging. Efficient eh.

Muahaha, Hime and I bought this from Action City. Notebook that looks like those ancient chinese kung-fu books lol. Damn expensive though.

And this is... hehe a surprise! You'll know it soon. ;)

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And of course, today is my gorgeous babe Ah Ling's birthday! :D

A picture of hers that i love.

Happy Sweet 16 my bitch! I love you loads! xoxo.

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Fatigue.

Saturday, March 26, 2011,10:25 PM

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So keep quiet, again.

Blogging out of nothing again. I feel so lifeless wtf. Didn't went out even though it's the weekend, i just couldn't bring myself to it as i am tortured by muscle pains due to running yesterday. Yes, serve me right for not taking the warm up seriously. But actually i was hoping for muscle pains. Lol call me sadomasochistic but i love muscle pains. Just not this type of agony-lethargy package pain that i'm having now. Ugh.

I'm dying to go shopping. I wish someone would bring me out tomorrow, i don't want to rot at home on a beautiful Sunday T_T And one more thing. Like it or not, if i really have nothing else to blog about, i'll keep on writing crap posts like this. Either bear with it, or bring me out! ;)

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Dilemma.

Friday, March 25, 2011,10:04 PM

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So keep quiet.

Here i go again. I really have this uncontrollable urge to type every time. To express the ding dongs and ching changs and bangs and whams inside me, changing them into strings of understandable language. Aren't words beautiful? Okay cut the crap.

Truth is, quite a lot has been going on. I know it doesn't show on me, i don't want it to show either. But this is like, a major conflict happening inside me. Debating with myself everyday is just plain tiring, i couldn't reach the conclusion anyway. Yes? No? Right? Wrong? Serious? Just a joke? It's true? Or am i just being paranoid and thinking too much? You see, none of those questions have answers to them. So i have no idea why am i still killing all my brain cells thinking of them.

Sigh. It's frustrating, not knowing what i myself want. It's so annoying to the point that i feel like slapping myself. -_- I want, but i don't want either. Wtf is this. I want to stay in-between, i want to be in the middle of 'yes' and 'no'. But this middle region is just a temporary one, someday i'll have to choose which way will i go, forward or backwards? Dreading that day. Can i just ignore everything and let it be as it is? Ignorance should be a bliss, right.

Alright, back to life. ULBS coming up, projects, presentations, homework, laziness, lethargy. Summarize it into 3 simple alphabets: Wtf.

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Yawn.

Thursday, March 24, 2011,11:22 PM

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Pointlessly blogging at night again. My day was alright today, nothing out of the ordinary. Cough still hasn't heal completely, damn. I miss cold drinks so badly T_T Got most of the exam papers except bio, not too bad but well, i guess this term doesn't count since it's just an assessment. To prevent death for my second term, i'll try harder, i swear.

Sometimes, my days are filled with anticipation. I looked forward to it. But at the same time, there's this sense of anxiety bugging me. I cowered, i feared, i'm terrified. Don't want to move forward, don't want to go back either. Being stuck in the middle is just plain annoying. But for now, i guess i'm not going anywhere. Yet.

Things are kind of complicated now but...i guess i shouldn't think about it. And yeah, i'm typing lots of bullshit here that even i don't fully comprehend. I'm so sleepy. Probably tomorrow i'll look at this post and be puzzled. Am i sleepwalking?

I should go to bed now.

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Dots.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011,11:24 PM

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It's 11.25pm and i have no idea why i'm blogging now. It's not like i have announcements to make, it's not like i have news to share, it's not like i have anything to blog about, really. Just felt like typing i suppose? I have a feeling i'll do these sort of short and meaningless posts more often. If i really do, please bear with it. Heh. Goodnight everyone, sleep tight. (:

P.S. And Fluffy's fur is growing already! Snail-paced but still. Her newly grown fur are all prickly now, she looks like a deer-chihuahua with porcupine pricks. But i still love her, all the way down. ;)

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Ample space.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011,9:37 PM

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Hello all. Sorry for not having anything interesting to blog today. If you've been checking out my Facebook, you will know that my gorgeous Fluffy has officially became a naked mole-rat. I wanted to post the pics here but i'm just too lazy so, if you haven't see it yet just go to my Facebook. ( Make sure you're not eating or you might just choke... ) We shaved her because according to the groomer, it's kinda like a necessity to shave her at least once in a lifetime, so that her new fur will grow out nicer.

It broke my heart into pieces seeing my baby like that T_T I'm so devastated and dumbstruck. Now she have to wear her sweater at all times and her paws are always cold. She must feel cold without all the fur ): Argh i'm so worried! And i regretted getting her shaved, but we really had no choice sob. Praying that her fur will grow out fast and soon!

P.S Sport practice started, so lazy for it.
P.P.S Not too satisfied with my exam papers, but decided to settle for it since it's the first term.

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Wood-craft is love.

Sunday, March 20, 2011,1:24 PM

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As you guys know, i'm a die-hard fan for handcrafts. This particular handcraft is the hardest i've ever tried before, because you practically made everything from scratch and there's the lighting/electricity you have to fix. It's a real challenge and I did it for many months because i always didn't have the time and abandoned it. Heh. But it's completed now! (:

Oh did i mention? It's supposed to be a cake house. They provided me with the box but i have to fix the hinges so that it can be opened. Thank you mummy for helping me with it (:

The rack for my cakes with the price tags hehe.

And my collection of cakes! These are not provided. Made them up from scratches of papers, beads, ribbons, strings etc. The people who wrote the instructions are so creative, how can they think of this?!

Cakes on the rack! Yep, judging from the size of the rack comparing to my phone, you can imagine how tiny all those things are.

Rack with the "glass". The superglue kind of fogged up the plastic and i'm fine with it because it looks like my cakes are frosted aye?

Gift boxes! Very very tiny.

And this erm..what do you call it? It's the thing you pick up bread with. I know this looks kinda ugly but i've used up all my patience lol. Compare it with the size of my fingers, can't you see how small is this thing?

The chair that killed me. Twisting the white metal-thingy just makes me go wtf all the time.

The table cloth kinda killed me too. But isn't this cute? ;)

Bunch of tiny and cute stuffs.

And finally it's done! :D

Sneak a peek inside...

With the lights on! Let me tell you, fixing the LED lights with the wires sucks. -_- But thanks to the help from Hime i did it yay.

My very own miniature cake house hehe. Looking at it makes me burst with satisfaction ahh.

The annoying thing about these type of crafts is that you have to befriend superglue all the time, and you need to have tiny fingers because the items are very delicate. Superglue might be efficient, but if you pull hard enough the thing is still going to come off. You need to have a whole load of patience and time at your disposal, or else you'll end up smashing the whole thing in frustration.

For your info, i bought this DIY thing at Midvalley, it's like a stall, not a shop. It's in front of Living Cabin if i'm not mistaken. There's a lot of other choices too like coffee house, baby's room, bride's room, bar, pet shops etc. Cost about 40 bucks i guess? I'm definitely going to buy another one :D

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Window Shopping wtf.

Saturday, March 19, 2011,4:01 PM

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This morning i went shopping at The Mines with mum and Hime. Our main mission was not shopping though, we went there to change Hime's speakers and Fluffy's t-shirt. Well...did a lot of window shopping there. Tried on loads of clothes that i love but didn't buy any of them because they're kinda overpriced and not worth it wtf. ):

But no worries, here's a bunch of vain pics of me and all the junks i picked tried on. Heh. ( Did i mention that i love trying on clothes? )

This is Nichii i guess? I never get bored of Nichii, i can always find something to try on. This shirt is nice but it cost RM40, which is really overpriced for a mere t-shirt. And mum's favourite sentence: You can get this from the pasar la!!

Another little black dress. Kinda like it, but there won't be occasions for me to wear it. ( Please ignore all the mess. )

Some flowery dress. From far it kinda looks like newspaper cutting lol!

A casual shirt that i liked but overpriced too. ):

I love this piece, but i've already got something similar in my closet and it's not cheap enough sobs.

The trio! (:

Okay that's about it. I have nothing else to update/say. Before i end my post, i shall show you...

Fluffy with her first ever t-shirt! It says 'Queen, checkmate' on the shirt hehe. So so adorable. ;D She don't really like wearing shirts but erm, she don't really bother about it either. I love my baby so so much (:

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Untitled, again.

Friday, March 18, 2011,8:37 PM

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Memories are to be kept, not to be missed.

I know it's been a few days since i blogged, but seriously there's nothing so fun about my life right now. Holiday is bored and totally unproductive. I slacked and slacked and got nothing done wtf. Yes i know holidays are supposed to be for slacking and relaxations but doing nothing makes me feel annoyed.

Anyway, mummy and I went out to The Mines for lunch.

Outfit of the day. Don't you just love black? ( Please kindly ignore the mess that had started to define my room since god knows when. )

Sweet Chat for lunch, first time trying out here. Not bad but not good either.

Brazilian coffee. Not my thing ugh.

Macaroni baked with cheese. Average taste.

Later we picked up some stuffs at the vet's... Dental snacks for Fluffy, Petster magazine and the dog license for our ominous looking rottweilers namely Bobo, Coco and Jojo. Stop laughing. And the paw-shaped license this year is so cute!

And this! Hehe super cute t-shirt for Fluffy and some pao-thing with honey flavour. I really enjoy buying things for her! ( Have to go exchange the shirt tomorrow though, it's too small for her. I can't believe my daughter's grown into M size already T_T )

Speak of the devil ;)

Don't you just melt when you look into her eyes? I do!

P.S And one more thing, we registered for UniFi today! So giddy with happiness. But we still have to wait for some time because i don't think my area has the coverage yet D:

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