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Dedication.

Saturday, November 21, 2009,1:37 PM

Just came back from Parent's Day. In school, i can't help thinking what Queenie said yesterday 'At least tomorrow we go school can see our class from far.' Damn you, made me so damn sad. All of them made me so depressed, especially yesterday. We were online, chatting, talking about 2 Charity, talking about friends, talking about feelings, speaking out all those secrets throughout the year. I've got the chance to tell them what i've always wanted to say, tell them i appreciate them, lots.

Yes, i still cannot get over the fact that it's year end holidays. It somehow still feels like this is just a normal weekend, and feel as if i'll return to school on Monday, step into 2 Charity again, and be with them. But i know i couldn't, and i will never ever be there again. It will never, ever feel the same. We will never, ever return to 2 Charity. We could never, ever create more memories in that class. ( Doesn't mean that we cannot create memories outside. )

To you, i may seem paranoid. You might say, it's just a class, and next year will surely be better. But i'm not so sure about that this time. Yeah i admit, last year i love Senior 1 Hope 08' so damn much that i hated the last day too. But i just said it casually, just a lil bit of sadness, just some lil disappointment. Later, within hours, i've forgotten about it and looked forward to the holiday. But this year, i couldn't stop thinking about our class. Senior 2 Charity 09' was way, way, better than 1 Hope, it's my best year, best class. I cried, too, along with some of them. It seemed funny that yesterday we were all crying while chatting on msn and complaining that we can't see the screen because of the tears. But we all know we love Sr 2 Charity 09', aye? =)

This is the second dedication i wrote to Sr 2 Charity. There's a big possibility that there might be the third, or the fourth, or the fifth or more. It's hard to forget all those times. And to you guys from Charity, especially those who were on msn with me yesterday night, if you're reading this, don't cry anymore. Smile, and remember those memories, lock them in your heart. We might be in separate ways next year, but remember: Once a Charity, forever a Charity.

Amis pour toujours, friends forever.

P.S. Battleground tonight. Supporting ECX, definitely.
P.P.S. Gotta go for photo shooting tomorrow, like, for those albums. Mum insisted. Will update about it i guess.

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What was i thinking? At that very moment i was doubting. Did i make the right choice? If i were to be given a second chance, will i still choose the same thing, walk the same path? If i went back in time and make a different choice will everything be completely different from now? But still, thank you God, for giving me the chance to say what i'd always wanted to say, and letting me know what i'd always hoped to be the truth.

我告诉我自己，当时那个突然而来又莫名其妙的感觉...只是个错觉而已。
我不断告诉我自己，那不是我真正的感受，那只是错觉。
一时意识不清楚而产生的错觉而已。
我很确定，我所做的选择没有错。
我不会后悔的。

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